i JUST see

I see, every morning when I get up.
A boy cladded in a school uniform.
Dropping the daily paper to every house.
With a bag on his back, paddling his cycle.
Dripping with sweat he does his job.

I see, on my way to the office.
A woman carrying a large bag on her back.
Searching for something in the garbage outside my town-ship.
She separates the plastic and paper material from it.
Collects them and puts in that large bag.
She has a small boy standing beside her.
He pulls her sari to get her attention.
Unaware of what she is doing, he tries to disturb her.
She stops her work for some time.
Lifts the boy and cuddles him.
Takes out a bread piece from somewhere.
Gives it to him and puts him down.
Again lifts her bag and goes on.

I see, when I reach my office.
An old man, wearing his security uniform.
Standing at the company's gate.
He keeps a rifle which he can barely lift.
Salutes to every person that goes inside.
He has a chair nearby the gate.
I wonder though that he ever sits.

I see, when i am at a small tea joint.
In shabby clothes a boy brings my tea.
Has a piece of cloth kept at his shoulder.
He uses it to clean the tables.
People around call him 'chotu'.
I still don't know his real name.
The joint owner shouts at him if he mistakes.
I think what I used to do at his age.

I see, while going back home in the evening.
A group of young lads sitting on their bikes around the corner.
A girl is walking ahead of me.
She tries to keep distance from them.
Someone from that group says something to her.
Suddenly everyone in the group starts commenting on her.
Scared by the humiliation she speeds up her steps.
Might be praying in her mind she moves ahead.
The boys are still laughing at her.
Waiting for some other prey they are still sitting there.


All these things i JUST see.

Never Ever Cry

i wanted to fly,
give it a try.
how it feels to be free,
to cuddle in the lap of thee.

then i realized i need to be special,
it wont do if i just get a facial;
you need to have wings,
those that make you fly, such sort of things.

i saw an injured bird trying to go away,
in the winds that would make it sway;
it was badly hurt, it knew,
its days of life might now be few.

it started to try from a wall,
i feared that it might happen to fall;
it made a plunge, flapping one of its wing,
could n't continue much, and found one branch to cling.

again it started from there,
if it flew, it would be a nightmare;
but this time it went through a hell,
with a loud thud, on the ground it fell.

i closed my eyes, i could not see it in pain,
tears fell from my eyes like the drops of rain;
why did it still want to fly i thought,
why against all odds, it fought.

i saw the disappointment in its eyes,
sad at the failure, inspite of many tries;
why the life has to be this harsh i questioned,
it will give us challenges, nobody has ever mentioned.

three days after, i came to see it,
to check whether has it come out of that shit;
to my surprise it seemed to have been healed,
can't express how happy then i feeled.

but, it was now no longer able to achieve heights,
enjoy with its friends all those fights;
it settled itself on a tree,
there only it made itself feel free.

it had built for itself a beautiful nest,
now no longer it travelled places in some quest;
happy to me it did seem,
its life was now like a cake, though without a cream :)

it found for itself a new meaning to life,
on that very tree it started to dive;
from branch to branch it merrily jumped,
that time of pain now seemed to be dumped.

seeing it that day i learnt something,
from that very day i stopped cribbing;
be happy in life with whatever you have got,
and think about those who have them not.

Yeh kya hua..!!

The following is about almost all the college pass outs..:)


Yeh kya hua, kaise hua,
Kab hua, kyun hua,
Jab hua, tab hua,
Choddo, yeh na poocho.

Huh..!! yeh toh hona hi tha,
Hum ko ek din badaa ban na hi tha;
Nikal chuke hum us befikr daur se,
Ho chuke hain apne aap se bhi door se.

Abhi toh the hum bachche thode samay pehle,
Soye rehte the apne palang pe faile;
De di hai lagaam humein apne waahan ki,
Ab karni hogi humein chinta saare jahaan ki.

Woh projects ki deadlines,
Woh manager ki BOLD lines;
Sun ni padti hain ab baatein sab ki,
Tabhi toh beta hogi hamaari tarakki.

Bhool gaye hain woh doston ke saath baithna,
Ghanton, bewajah baaton pe charcha karna;
Yaad aa raha hai ab unka woh kehna,
"Lectures attend kar, aur notes hamaare liye rakhna".

Ghooma karta tha apni bike pe maze mein,
Pauhanch jaata tha kisi bhi jagah pe kuch hi minton mein;
Ab roz kha raha hun buson mein dhakke,
Sabhi ne hai mere jooton pe unke joote rakhe.

Khaana pad raha hai ab canteen ka ganda khaana,
Menu ghatiya hone par bhi nahin banaa sakta koi bahaana;
Yaad aa rahi hai ab maa ke haathon ki woh roti,
Mulaayam, garm, fooli hui aur choti. :p

Dhota hun khud ke kapde ab khud,
Nahin sikha abhi tak bana na apna food;
Aa rahi hai ab bade hone ki feeling,
Bade soch samajh kar karta hun ab paison ki handling.

Shrishti ka yahi neeyam hai pyaare,
College ke baad sab ke ho jaate hain vaare nyaare;
Kyun hua bada yeh main ab sochta hun,
Beete palon ke hi sapne dekha karta hun.

Lekin yeh waali zindagi mein bhi kuch baat hai,
Ismein bhi chipe hue kai raaz hain;
Seekh raha hun roz kai nayi baatein,
Unki implementation mein kaat raha hun apni raatein.

Nahin hatoonga iss rah se yeh mera faisla hai;
Kuch naya karne ka iss dil mein ab jasbaa hai.

To mom, with love

You have cried with me,
You have smiled with me;
You have lived yourself around me,
You are my beloved mom.

I never shouted a thing,
but you knew what I wanted;
Even before I thought,
my wish was granted.

You made me learn walk,
you made me to talk;
Whenever i had a fear of falling,
you stood with your arms wide open.

I wanted to fly,
though impossible you made me think I can;
I wanted to try,
and you always had the stuff that would help my way.

The food you make,
cannot be found any where else;
I don't need to go to hotels,
you are my best chef ever.

At times I have been mad at you,
still you never stopped loving me;
You have given me time to understand my mistakes,
and have accepted me in any way.

Though I never tell you,
i love you a lot;
Don't know how I would have faced this mad mad world,
if you would not have been around.


there's much to say, but anything would be less before your greatness.
LOVE you maa. You would always remain the beautiful lady I have ever known.
Happy Mother's Day.

I won't cry.

You are giving me slow death but I won't cry.
You do not love me, still I won't cry.

You have shaved off my hairs, my skin is exposed to the rough sun now.
You have sucked the water from me, and now I am thirsty like hell.
Still I won't cry.


The amount of water I used to take for bathing has been cut down by you.
It's just 'coz of you that I am not able to drink sufficient amount of water.
Still I won't cry.


You have divided me like anything,
Now even I don't know what was my original form;
The chemicals that you throw on my skin leave that part useless.
Still I won't cry.


I provided you with everything.
Food to eat, water to drink.
And this is what you are giving me back.
How bad are my children.
Still I won't cry.


I just wanted a bit of care from you.
But I forgot that man is a selfish animal.
And expected a lot from you.
Please listen to me, for now is the time.
If you still don't then a time would soon come that I would no longer exist.
And my body would be useless for you.
You will perish soon after that,
I would be glad that I didn't stay alive to see you suffer, and cry.

Bakwaas Shayari..:)

yaad teri aaegi humein main jhooth nahin kehta,
kissi se bhi dil main laga nahin baithta;
waise toh aayi kayin raste mein hamare,
lekin tere siva main bhav kissi ko nahin deta.


maine zindagi mein kai raaste dekhein hain,
har rah pe patthar sabhi ne fenke hain;
main guzra hun un sabhi se bachkar,
maine andheron mein bhi diye jalaa kar rakhein hain.


humein tumse pyaar kitna yeh hum nahin jaante,
kab tak leke baitho gi woh jhoote khat,
ab toh unhein fekde.


kora kagaz tha yeh mann mera,
likh diya naam iss pe tera;
maana ke naam likha tha maine,
lekin tum toh use name plate samajh,daal diye ho us pe dera.


kabhi kabhi mere dil mein khayaal aata hai,
ke roz raat ko mera padosi kahaan jaata hai.
dhoondne ke baad pata chala,
ke yeh kamina roz mere ghar pe hi aata hai.


aaj tu gair sahi, tera mera postal address bhi same nahin,
tune mere pyaar ko nahin samjha,
zaalim yeh bhi koi game nahin.


tumne mujhe beech rah mein yun choda,
mere dil ko sheeshe ki tarah kyun toda;
humne tumhe khush rakhne ki kitni koshish ki,
na jaane phir bhi tumne humse muh kyun moda.


rishte mein toh hum tumhare baap lagte hain,
naam hai shehensha;
" hey man waat is the menu,
please bring idli dhosa fresha ". ;)



ps: to be continuted...;)

The FIGHT..!!

This is my pure imagination and doesn't relate to me in any way.


We were happy, life was fun but suddenly it came,
I don't know why and how it attacked,
But it has left me shattered,
It was a fight.

You were quiet, and I didn't even speak,
Why didn't we argue was bizarre;
Things should have been cleared,
Before we split apart.

Going back I remember those happy days,
You were my strength, and I never backed out of a thing then;
You were my courage, the journey would not have been smooth without it,
Now how can I live.

Your smile, aahhhh !! what to say,
A clean killer;
Those dimple on your cheeks,
My day-maker.

The way I used to fell into your arms,
The way you lowered your head on my chest,
The way we expressed the love with our eyes,
Are all long gone now.

I should have known the fault was mine,
I had only took a bit more of a wine;
I wish that day could have been different,
Life's not a movie, else I would have made a rewind.

I want to say sorry, but it's too late,
The train you took has no return path way;
But if you feel me, then do come back,
And see how happy I would become.

Now you are not with me,
Life's a hell;
My soul is crying,
Please listen to its yell.


Come back my love, come back my life.

" Saali Khushi "

disclaimer: sorry for using the word 'saali' , but this wudn't have had the effect without it..:)


Bhagaaye humein, sataaye humein, tadpaaye humein, ghumaaye humein;
Na jaane kaisi hai yeh, saali khushi.

Dhoonde ise hum jagah jagah, iske thikaane ka pata nahin,
Jab mile toh ispe bharosa nahin, na mile toh issa koi aur bura nahin,
Jisko mile woh bhi khush, na milne walon ke dookh ka koi ilaaj nahin;
Aisi hai yeh, saali khushi.

Jitni bhi koshish karo bhage gi yeh door tumse,
Bhaago ge tum tez, phir bhi yeh rahegi aage tumse,
Bhool kyun jaate ho tum, ke hai iska astitva sirf tum hi se;
Aisi hai yeh, saali khushi.

Kisi ka chehra khil uthe isi se,
Kisi ka khoon badhe isi se,
Kisi ki chinta ghate isi se;
Aisi hai yeh, saali khushi.

Rulaaye bhi yeh, hasaaye bhi yeh,
Dono mein bilkul alag si hai yeh,
Dikhti hai nahin, phir bhi anmol hai yeh;
Aisi hai yeh, saali khusi.

Pata nahin kyun yeh hamesha nahin rehti,
Kisi ke chehre pe yeh hamesha nahin dikhti,
Kaisi hoti yeh zindagi agar hoti yeh dukaano mein bikti;
Aisi hai yeh, saali khushi.

Zindagi hai isi se, nahin toh kuch bhi nahin;
Aisi hai yeh, saali khushi.

Always keep smiling. Life would be better. It affects others as much as it affects you.

THE Mainframes.

I am at the training.
Sitting by my system.
Running my program.
And suddenly the Z10 hangs.
This is what happens now a days with me..

Have started my training with TCS and have got mainframes as my stream for working. Basically have no idea what I would be doing with it till now. All i have been doing these days is sitting in front of a black screen, issuing the commands through keyboards, and when all seams well, the system hangs.

TCS has an IBM mainframe of its own, located at chennai. The prob is that the people have allocated very few resources for the training purpose. Now you tell me, if we have to wait for an unpredicted time for our prog's output to come during practice itself, then what we would learn. By the time the system responds we get so frustated that our excitement for coding is all gone.

Learning to keep going with the situation at hand. Baaki toh maje mein hun. Life's going well in gandhinagar. Miss family a big time. But this is the time to control my emotions and work. Life would be good afterwards.

Till then Mainframe is my only friend..:)

And I am sorry.

"I hit u on the face, and I'am sorry.
I crushed your feet, and I'am sorry.
I broke your heart, and I'am sorry.
I never called back, oh am sorry."

"The MIG crashed, it wasn't our mistake,
The plane was alright, we tested it properly.
He's dead now, we give you 1 lac for him,
And we are sorry."

Riots broke out,
The trains are set on fire.
People are thrown into pieces by the bombings,
There's a chaos everywhere around.
No food to eat, no where to go,
No surety of life, no one to listen.
"The conditions would be alright soon,
We are trying to find out the culprits,
Till then please try to keep up your hopes,
And for our negligence, we are sorry."

A girl raped to death,
The culprit is a politician's lad,
"He was really drunk and dint know what he was doing,
There's nothing we can do much,
And we regret for the loss of your daughter,
For everything else, we are sorry."

Personally speaking i am sick of hearing this word. There would have been no need of it if we all knew what we were doing. People are in a habit of realizing their mistakes afterwards, and sometimes they realize when just a sorry doesn't help. In some cases it is accepted, but still please try not to be Sorry.

p.s. : this is just my view, nobody is to be offended..